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January 03, 2008
A happy new year
Last year I didn't knit much. I was not active, positive, nor productive. All things are related with my personal life, private mind status. It is very clear for me that I cannot knit at all when I am not in good mood. Knitting cannot console me unfortunately. Though when I am happy and relaxed, knitting knocks my heart gently, and I can respond.
Everyone have their own story and life. So do I. The last year was my struggling year, I was stressed, disturbed by revealed family secret, got a feeling of lost place in public working world, and so on. Now I have to say that I was terrible in 2007.
During that difficulty, I tried to say time to time "I am OK" here in my blog, to say I am alive, in a wee corner of blogsphere, or globe. But actually I was not OK. Not at all. Last year I was very often in bed, even if I wasn't sick physically, I was just too tied to do anything. I did the minimum to carry off daily life and the days just passed aside of me. Home wasn't comfortable place for everyone of family. I was jerk and lazybones.
After moving in November, though, my situation has been gradually improved. The more home is tidied up, the more my nerve is calmed down. My surrounding is changed; we bought some new furniture, cleaned up the boxes. Put in order all the books, yarns, knitting thingies as well as other daily materials. These are physical changes, but there, at the same time a mental transition was getting on inside of me.
Now I feel as if I digged out of a dark tunnel. The year 2007 has passed. I don't tell you I have now completely perfect life, I have yet tons of daily rough bits here and there, some really annoy me, but I can handle them. I have energy to live with daily errands. I can travel. I can live. I can knit now, so far.
At the end of the year, I wanted to knit something, a mindless easy knit which just make me work on, so I took my "super-easy leg warmer" and completed it. When it finished, I felt strong motivation to knit. It is like fire and burning me. I know I have tons of WIPs of the past, but I casted on a new project without hesitation, on January 1st.
This is Day 1. The yarn is Jo Sharp Silkroad Aran Tweed, (yes, the same one I use for my Arangensey, but the color is different), the pattern is "Charlotte" from Rowan book A Season's Tale. Simple snuggy turtle-neck sweater. This calls only stockinette and a bit ribbing. It is just right for me. My urge for knitting is now bursting, I just need to knit, knit, knit. I love the yarn, and knit it. And this is today's status:
Day 3.
Please wish me luck. I try to complete it in a week.
Posted by trico at January 3, 2008 07:54 PM
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happy new year, jun! glad to hear that you are feeling better. =)
Posted by: shobhana at January 4, 2008 01:53 AM
Gambatte yo! I also had a terrible year. Let's hope 2008 is much better. It looks like you are already off to a good start!
Posted by: Mariko at January 4, 2008 01:02 PM
No matter how worst is it, to share with you this:
life is like weather,
sometime it is sunny;
sometime it is rainy;
pls keep some sunny days for the rainny days
(the above was from my late hubby to me, which he sent to me 2 mths prior to his sudden death )
I was in bad shape on and off, however, life still goes on with my 3 girls, it is tough, and I have to always remind myself that:
FOr everything happened, there is a reason and there is a season, this also shall pass
you have lovely knitting in progress, keep up to it. I was addicted to compulsive stashing...:-)
Posted by: Aw at January 5, 2008 01:07 PM
Thank you for your lovely blog. I have enjoyed reading it for a few years, and the beautiful things you have made have inspired me!
Posted by: Deborah at January 9, 2008 06:31 AM