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October 11, 2007
I am alive
Actually, I am alive yet. I have been at Knit Out Tokyo 2007 last Saturday and writing a small article about it....
And, today I have knitted a bit. It was very, very long time the last time I knitted something. Oh, but actually I knitted at KnitOut with their free knitting kit. I made nothing from it though.
Today, I've got a tiny cue of pleasure... of knitting. I knitted a sock a little.
And, I guess finally I found out why I didn't knit for so long and lost interest in knitting. I am serious, I analized about myself.
There is two main reasons. One of them was my health. Since some months ago, I've been affected by hormonal-induced problem. During this period, I had been quite naturally so badly negative, unhappy, disturbed and stressed out, both phisically and mentally.
And this month, it looks calmer. I feel again I am normal human-being.
Maybe it has passed by. I hope.
The second reason was that this year I lost my budget for knitting related shopping due to quitting office work. Now I don't buy anything. At the beginning, It was quite hard for the person like me, bad yarn-addict. And the more I became ill, the more I lost any interest for anything, and then, finally I lost my urge for getting more yarn.
And it meant straightaway, I lost interest in knitting. I found myself, not as decent knitter but as stinky yarn snob-collector. When I cannot buy yarns, I am not interested in knitting at all.
Terrible.
But, oh friends, but now, I realised too, that I might be a normal person now....not obsessed by e-mails of yarn sale, no need to trying to stop myself to type my credit card number at online shop, not disturbed to find more space for yarn in my tiny apartment.
So.
I might be born again. I don't know now who I am. What I know now is only that there might be a possibility to be a normal, healthy person who has decent attitude when she is in a yarn shop.
These days, I think I have to go to a yarn shop to buy an appropriate cercular needle for my dusty WIP. Arangensey. I have many, many beautiful yarns. Maybe I would even reduce some, feeling settled. I would make peace with it all. Soon.
Posted by trico at October 11, 2007 01:02 AM